Busy vs. Frantic vs. Meltdown

Don’t get me wrong, being busy can be a good thing. It makes the day go by faster, it keeps you sharp, and it gives you a sense of accomplishment at the end of the day.

What I do NOT like, however, is being frantically, panicky busy. The hands shaking, oh-my-god-I-have-so-much-to-do, how-am-I-ever-going-to-get-this-done, please-god-let-my-phone-stop-ringing, I-have-HOW-many-emails?, you-want-this-done-WHEN? busy. The meltdown busy. The fighting back tears as you type as fast as you can, half listening to whoever is yelling on the other end of the phone line. The no lunch, no peeing, sitting rigidly still waiting for the world to collapse in busy.

Yeah. The past few days have been the not-good kind of busy. I’m not going to get into the specifics, because I’m not trying to get dooced (in the off-chance someone IRL found my blog).

But that’s where I’ve been the past while. I’ve tried to check in to your blogs during the few minutes I sneak in the bathroom. I’m cheering for those of you who’ve received good news, and mourning with others who haven’t.

A quick update about the goings on in my neck of the woods:

  • I’m 12 weeks tomorrow. Had a scan (at the OB!!) at 11 weeks, 1 day and it was awesome. The pirate was doing a mambo. Wish I could feel it. (I’ll probably regret saying that later). Measured a day ahead. Obviously my future child is very advanced.
  • Tammy and I went to my parent’s house this past weekend, where Tammy proceeded to get some kind of horrific insect bite on her neck that is now infected. It has inflamed a string of lymph nodes in her neck. She’s on antibiotics but hasn’t seen much improvement yet.
  • This article is fucking stupid. If I had more time I’d post a take down, but let’s just agree that William Saletan is an idiot.
  • I have my nuchal translucency scan next Tuesday. Hopefully I’ll get another good picture.
  • Speaking of pictures, here’s the pirate at 11 weeks, 1 day: baby, 11w2d
  • I’m feeling larger. Hard to tell what’s bloat and what’s…not bloat, but I sure as heck do not fit into my regular pants. Can I just make a note here about how comfortable maternity pants are? Why do we not all wear elastic waist pants ALL.THE.TIME? Can we get something in Vogue on this?
  • My belly button is stretching. It is the most bizarre thing. It feels very tender and the hole is becoming positively cavernous in my stomach. My innie is also becoming puffy and poofy and I’m afraid I will end up with an outtie sooner than expected.
  • I’m still scared of miscarriage but becoming less so every day. A tiny bit. Teeny eensy weensy bit.
  • Today was the first day in weeks that I did not want to vomit at any point. Victory! (other than the times I wanted to vomit due to stress. I’m talking pregnancy vomit that was avoided)
  • Yeah. That’s about it. Hope all of you are well. Off to a meeting with the boss man to…hand him a piece of paper. Yes. So glad I’m still at work to hand him a piece of paper. Not that I’m bitter about that or anything. My chance to get home at a decent hour, foiled by handing him a piece of paper. Awesome.

10 thoughts on “Busy vs. Frantic vs. Meltdown

  1. Sounds like all good news on the baby front! Congratulations! Have you been able to feel your uterus peering out over your pelvic bone!? It’s sooooo awesome! If you haven’t, you will any day now!

  2. Maternity pants are the best!! I got my first pair during my last fresh cycle because I was so bloated nothing fit, and then I wore them for like six months before I actually got pregnant. I’m hoping I can wear them forever and no one will ever notice.

  3. I’ve been wearing stretchy pants as often as possible ever since my last IVF cycle (secretly hoping, of course, that they would transition into pregnancy).

    I’m glad everything looks good with the pirate, and I hope work gets better soon! That busy-but-not-too-busy balance is hard to find.

  4. Woohoo! Bring on the second trimester when your chance of miscarriage declines big time. I’m sure, knowing you, that you’ll still worry. But I sincerely hope it brings you a little peace of mind. Grow little pirate grow. Sending healing vibes to Tammy, calming vibes your way, and a whole lotta love all around. 🙂

  5. Woohoo! Bring on the second trimester where your chance of miscarriage declines big time. Grow little Pirate grow. Sending healing vibes for Tammy, calming vibes for you, and a whole lotta love all around. 🙂

  6. I’ve tried to comment twice now…this thing hates me.

    Woohoo! Bring on the 2nd trimester when your risk of miscarriage greatly declines. I’m sure you’ll still worry but I hope it brings you some peace of mind. Grow little pirate, grow! Healing vibes for Tammy, calm vibes for you, and a whole lotta love all around.

  7. Definitely a big difference between ‘busy’ and ‘frantic’ and the latter is really frustrating. Glad that your little one is growing so well! The scan looks great. Hope Tammy gets feeling better soon. Hope work settles down a bit for you.

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